It's been a few months that I've left Finland, I was explaining to someone why I moved to Finland in the first place and how I discovered this country, one reason was my love for Sibelius particularly his "Finlandia" work and Violin Concerto played by Hiefetz.
I miss wondering around Verkkokauppa in Jätkäsaari and buying things I didn't need, I miss the blue and orange buses and also Trams. I miss the train from central railway station to my workplace at Pasila. I miss my tiny studio in Töölö, walking to Sibelius monument when I felt down. I miss getting sushi at K-Market or that feeling when you wake up and see everything is covered with snow. I miss the Sandles beer and Salmiakki ice cream at Alepa store. I miss those marimekko reusable bags which I never bought one, and also the makia store at the Mannerheimintie !
The other day I was thinking if I can find Mämmi here in Canada, and I kind of miss the language, when you say on the phone "Anteeksi, en puhu suomea" ( I don't know if that is rude anyway!) I miss the Finnish classes at adult education center. I miss my effort to blend in with the society, I felt more alive honestly …
I wish hadn't move to Canada … immigrating for the second time was much harder … I thought going to a country that is more crowded and more "diverse" would cure my loneliness and feeling isolated, but it hasn't. It' all the same– you are still lonely. Sometimes I wonder if I have made the right decision to leave, but I guess you really never know … All I can say is that living in Finland is part of my identity.
Terveisin
by ComplexAd346