Combs didn’t care that freak-offs made me feel ‘worthless’ – Venturapublished at 19:40 British Summer Time

19:40 BST

Sakshi Venkatraman
Reporting from court

Warning: This post and others below contain distressing details

Ventura is now taking the courtroom through her first few “freak-off” experiences.

In tears, she describes on the stand the fear and humiliation she says she experienced when Combs called the first escort to his home.

She then explains how she took ecstasy and got drunk beforehand. She also put on a masquerade mask, which she tells the court Combs instructed her to wear.

She was too high to feel much, Ventura tells the court, but does remember feeling “dirty and confused”.

The freak-offs then became a weekly ritual, she says.

Ventura says she was worried if she declined to participate, Combs would become angry.

“His eyes would go black,” she testifies, describing episodes of rage. “The version of him I was in love with was no longer there.”

She started to feel like her only alone time with Combs was during these parties, Ventura says.

The prosecution asks her if there was anything she enjoyed about the freak-offs.

“The time spent with (Combs),” she answers.

She says she tried to tell him “gently” that “doing this made me feel horrible, it made me feel worthless”. But he didn’t care, she says.