It’s Late Thread [ 02 August 25 ]

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1. Turned up at the cinema and found out my screening of The Naked Gun had been cancelled. They automatically refunded my money and gave me a free ticket to the next screening, so that was a pretty good result. The film was basically Dad Jokes: The Movie, which I think we all need right now. I walked out in a very good mood.

2. Sat planning all these excellent places I’d love to go and what id do there if I wasnt tied down by relationships. I’d just fuck off, radio silence to everybody for months and be perfectly happy.

   I’m not silly enough to think uprooting my life to drink beer on plastic stools in Laos is the answer. But I fucking wish it was.

3. Ate processed food for the first time in two months, a pack of those freezer hamburgers with kaiser rolls that you need to bake in the oven. 

   I feel like absolute and utter shit, depressed with undertones of wanting to vomit. I can’t believe I ate all this crap for decades. And no matter how often I brush, the onion and garlic powder refuse to leave my tongue.

   Can’t wait to continue my chomping on yoghurt, bananas and oats in the morning. Call it a lesson learned.

4. I am still up because my sleep meds have stopped working properly.

   I did stuff today, like I cooked a bit and cleaned a bit. I even pottered to the corner shop. But I spent a large part of the day thinking about getting violently drunk. I am just so very bored and miserable and fed up recently, that the idea of getting really fucked up is appealing.

   Not going to do it, but it has been playing on my mind.

5. My wonderful Dad was rushed to the hospital last night. I feel very small, very anxious and far away.

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