It’s Late Thread [ 27 September 25 ]

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1. walked by a house that’s already got a christmas tree up. currently eating chips and watching joker to deal with such a traumatic event.

   on a serious note tho, i start uni on monday and tonight i was just filled with this almighty sense of dread. i don’t know if it’s my anxiety or if something is actually wrong. not sure what to do here.

2. I had a sad day today, so I’m listening to ClassicFm and reading a stupid book 😂😂

   I made yoghurt and now my entire flat smells like warm milk 🤪

3. Few beers and chilling with the cat on the sofa listening to 90’s and early 00’s bangers. Finch – letters to you, 4 none blondes – what’s up and currently Jimmy Eat World – The Middle as standout highlights.

   I miss gig days.

4. I’ve had an absolutely awful day. I am telling myself it’s because I got about 4h sleep last night but it might just be because my brain is a twat. 

   I didn’t end up going shopping. Will do it tomorrow. Gonna try get some cleaning and gardening done tomorrow too. 

5. We had a really nice day today. We had an obscene lie in, then went into town.

   We went to a favorite cafe for lunch then I went to a coffee shop to read and drink hot chocolate while my partner had an eye test, then I met them to help choose their new glasses.

   After that we did shopping, we just wandered around and took our time.

   When we got home we got our dog and took her for a walk, stopping in the local micro pub for a cheeky drink.

   When we got home again we had hotdogs for tea and watched a film, D.O.A starting Dennis Quade and Meg Ryan. I enjoyed it when I watched it years ago but my gosh it’s pretty crap lol.

   My partner is drinking knock off white chocolate liquor (Bally Castle from Aldi) and I’ve had a whisky. Now I’m quite tired so I’m thinking of going to bed.

   Tomorrow we’re taking our dog for a walk in the local woods and having a coffee at the cafe there, then possibly helping our neighbours with some obsolete power sockets. All in all a pretty chilled weekend.

6. 2 of my sports teams lost on the same day and have a crippling hangover, doing wonderful

7. I didn’t have much planned for today but that quickly turned into a half of a day doing things. An unexpected house viewing meant we had to get out of the house quick sharp, which resulted in us going and noseying at some houses ourselves!

   I’m hoping there’s definite interest and an offer as we’re kinda sat at the point where we can’t really proceed to look at anywhere to rent until it’s confirmed.

8. Got a job offer on friday after six rounds of interviews. Decent salary raise, 20% bonus and as much in equity on top. Would be safe to say it’d be the biggest challenge of my life so far – and I don’t mean to brag, but I once did a hole in one at the minigolf.

   I’m here pondering whether I should go for it or not.

   Present job is decently comfortable. Company’s led by a bunch of muppets, but it’s a behemoth. Not going anywhere. Plus the colleagues and management are top notch. Pay is quite a bit below market rate, and barely follows inflation yoy, which sucks ass because I’m money driven and intend to retire asap – 15 years would be a dream, and this job could make it somewhat realistic.

   I’m scared of giving up a cushy situation for a risky one (note that risk in itself isn’t necessarily a bad thing, it’s leverage) chasing … what, money ? Financial freedom ? I mean, if it weren’t for obligation to work, I’d be free to focus my time and energy on the stuff that I would truly care about. Being a net positive influence on my surroundings. There’s also the fact that, without being rich by any means, I’m doing ok. Think just above middle class, before 35 years old. Point is, would it not make sense to take stock of that and focus on other aspects of my life ?

   It’s a bit of a blur, and I can’t sleep.

9. Watched the last half of four balls in the ryder cup at the pub. Went on my own, was watching it at the bar and met a group of guys a fair bit older than me who invited me to their table as they noticed i was watching it.

   I had an absolute ball and I am going again tomorrow to meet them and watch the singles. They were extremely friendly and it was a great night. I am in work at 8am tomorrow so I am going to pray the shift goes fast.

10. Okay, note to self: do not read the Cask of Amontillado at night 😅

11. I just know I’m gonna be alone forever and it fucking sucks.

    Oh well, tomorrow’s another day. Keep plodding on. All I can do.

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