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A LOT OF BOTTLED UP FEELINGS JUST EXPLODED HERE
short version: hi I am 27 year old woman with a lot of mental and other problems including cptss (trauma), borderline, addiction to rilatine. My mama met my father in a mental hospital, so yeah that doesn’t need more explanation. My question: besides regular psychiatric healthcare, what really helped you or who or what place? Any options for a more spiritual approach but that isn’t like 70 euro’s per session. I so vote her in.
Thank you
The longer story:
You need help, you know that but don’t believe in any word a psychiatrist, doctor or psych has to say, cause it is a never ending circle. Are you like me and have you gotten more diagnoses than the dsm 5 contain? (Or at least it feels like that)
Meds after meds after more meds that made it worse and you kinda feel like a rat lab just following the doctors orders while your inner voice is shouting that they are a human not just any other patient? Well, I hope I am not alone but I have books to write about how my life got a thousant times worse during some of my hospital stays. I would never be an addict and i wouldn’t have severe post traumatic stress disorder if i just stayed away from psychiatric hospitals… okay not all are bad of course but i have been through hell. Rape, abuse, from men who made me feel like i was in love. I never touched any drugs until they teached me that during the quiet hours, not even a sigarette. Now i am still struggling with addiction and all the other stuff. But i believe there is more to it than those diagnostics and therapy that sounds good when you are there. I decided 4 years ago to never go back to a full psychiatric stay. Until i had no choice because trying to kill myself was apparently a good reason to lock me up.
Sorry i am ranting but what my question here is, to the people who relate even just a little. Where did you go? What really helped you change your life for the better.
Me, I love my sjamanic sessions and my osteopath does miracles. At least they really care for who I am now and not what my past me did. I would go to them every week if I could but I do not have the money for that. So now I recently relapsed in my addiction cause every day without the extra dopamine was a struggle to survive and I cried and prayed to die almost every night… I just wish I could be happy without having an addiction that has lots of consequences. Today I had my period for the first time in 7 years, it made me so scared and confused cause I was told I was never worthy of children and I would be a terrible mother. I was diagnosed with pcos and now suddenly my fertility came back… it should be great news but I couldn’t handle it in a good way.
I need to get sober again and I don’t know who will help me this time…. i would love to work with someone spiritual or even a vacation just to learn to love myself. But the prices are always so expensive. I can’t pay for it.
So does anyone know the magic place or person in Belgium who could really help me or has helped you to finally just be happy with your life? I don’t have much I can pay but I am very versatile in creating unique art and I can maybe do other things in return.
So sorry that this message is extremely long but i just couldn’t stop ventilating. Thank you so much for reading this so far. I am curious about your story now. And please be respectful to all
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Ok, i’m going to try to be nice and respectful here, bit i’ll also apologize in advance because this isn’t easy. It sounds like traditional medicine has failed you, or at least that’s how you are feeling yourself? You are literally asking for a magic healing place, which makes it sound like you feel the sollution to your mental health is exterior?
I think there is your biggest issue. The change has to come from within. This is true for the regular mental health care in our country, but that goes DOUBLE for non-recognised medical professionals like osteopaths, and TENFOLD for pseudoscience like shamans and the like.
In short: try looking for sollutions within, instead of searching for miracle treatments. Use any help you feel is good for you, but as a tool to help yourself. Don’t expect someone or something to “cure” you. Only you can do that.
I am member of SKEPP, you really don’t want my answer on osteopaths and shamans.
Not to say that some mushroom trip isn’t fun, but i will never claim its a substitute for proper healthcare.
Your problem is victimhood, its the fault of everyone else except yourself.
Hi, I am sorry you had to go through all this. I have gotten help from people in both the conventional medical world as well as in more alternative circles, and I always felt alternative approaches suit me better (I am talking about osteo, spiritual guidance, and so on).
I understand the reddit community is very skeptical and not accepting of these methods, so I won’t give any more details here. If you’d like to know more, feel free to send me a message.
– I you say you have books to write, then write those books. After having written them, either publish them or burn them.
– Don’t respond to pm’s from people trying to sell you stuff.
– General magic healing places don’t exist in Belgium.