{"id":94311,"date":"2026-01-04T15:22:16","date_gmt":"2026-01-04T15:22:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/94311\/"},"modified":"2026-01-04T15:22:16","modified_gmt":"2026-01-04T15:22:16","slug":"es-absoluti-neko-nenozeloju-noras-ikstenas-atklataka-intervija-par-dzivi-un-navi-santa","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/94311\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00abEs absol\u016bti neko neno\u017e\u0113loju\u2026\u00bb Noras Ikstenas atkl\u0101t\u0101k\u0101 intervija par dz\u012bvi un n\u0101vi \u2014 Santa"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00abPien\u0101k dz\u012bv\u0113 laiks, kad liekas, ka mums kaut kas pien\u0101kas. Un tie\u0161i tad dz\u012bve<\/a> un liktenis uzliek visliel\u0101ko p\u0101rbaud\u012bjumu. Man\u0101 gad\u012bjum\u0101 tas bija diezgan smagu notikumu kopums,\u00bb pirms diviem gadiem intervij\u0101 \u017eurn\u0101lam IEVA\u00a0atzin\u0101s rakstniece Nora Ikstena. \u0160\u012b saruna notika p\u0113c gadu ilgas klus\u0113\u0161anas. Toreiz Nora run\u0101ja par notikumiem, kas vi\u0146u ievainoja un noveda l\u012bdz l\u0113mumam, kas main\u012bja visu. Vi\u0146a bija \u013coti tuvu n\u0101vei, ta\u010du atgriez\u0101s\u2026 \u0160is gads s\u0101cies ar skumju v\u0113sti. 4. janv\u0101r\u012b Nora p\u0113c smagas slim\u012bbas no \u0161\u012bs pasaules ir aizg\u0101jusi.\u00a0<\/p>\n

Pieminot izcilo rakstnieci, aicin\u0101m br\u012bvpieej\u0101\u00a0izlas\u012bt \u013coti atkl\u0101tu Laumas L\u016bses-Kreicbergas sarunu ar Noru Ikstenu.\u00a0<\/p>\n

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Nora ir bijusi uz aizie\u0161anas m\u016b\u017e\u012bb\u0101 robe\u017eas un \u0101rsti daudz cer\u012bbu nedeva. K\u0101 v\u0113l\u0101k pati Nora rakst\u012bja esej\u0101 \u00abUztic\u0113ties v\u0101rdam\u00bb, kas tika public\u0113ta gr\u0101mat\u0101 \u00abRakstniec\u012bbas laboratorija\u00bb, tobr\u012bd vi\u0146a bija gatava pamest visu\u00a0\u2013 rakst\u012b\u0161anu, dz\u012bvo\u0161anu, tic\u012bbu un m\u012blest\u012bbu. Tom\u0113r, pateicoties apk\u0101rt\u0113jo m\u012blest\u012bbai un Dievam, vi\u0146ai izdev\u0101s atgriezties. V\u0113l vair\u0101k\u00a0\u2013 vi\u0146a pabeidza\u00a0 gr\u0101matu \u00abJ\u014dna\u00bb, izn\u0101ca ar\u012b b\u0113rnu gr\u0101mata \u00abDraugi. Vabul\u012b\u0161a un Pif\u0101na piedz\u012bvojumi\u00bb, kas tapusi kop\u0101 ar m\u0101kslinieci Kristi\u0101nu Dimiteri. Vi\u0146a uzst\u0101j\u0101s \u010ceslava Milo\u0161a las\u012bjumos Lietuv\u0101 un kop\u0101 ar filmu \u00abM\u0101tes piens\u00bb apbrauk\u0101ja\u00a0da\u017e\u0101das pasaules valstis. Dien\u0101, kad notika \u0161\u012b\u00a0saruna, vi\u0146a bija\u00a0Meksik\u0101, kur Gvadalaharas Starptautiskaj\u0101 gr\u0101matu izst\u0101d\u0113 p\u0101rst\u0101v\u0113ja Eiropas Savien\u012bbu k\u0101 goda autore ar div\u0101m gr\u0101mat\u0101m sp\u0101\u0146u valod\u0101\u00a0\u2013 \u00abM\u0101tes piens\u00bb un \u00ab\u016adens mirdz\u0113\u0161ana\u00bb. Intervija<\/a> tapusi 2023. gada izska\u0146\u0101.\u00a0<\/p>\n

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\u2013 Ja vajadz\u0113tu vien\u0101 v\u0101rd\u0101 pateikt, k\u0101ds tev ir bijis \u0161is gads?

\n\u2013 Br\u012bnumains! Un \u013coti ra\u017e\u012bgs! Pag\u0101ju\u0161\u0101 gada novembr\u012b esej\u0101, kas p\u0113c notiku\u0161\u0101 bija mana pirm\u0101 atgrie\u0161an\u0101s proz\u0101, rakst\u012bju, cik noz\u012bm\u012bgs rakstnieka dz\u012bv\u0113 var b\u016bt t\u0101ds klus\u0113\u0161anas gads. P\u0113c divdesmit pieciem intens\u012bvi nostr\u0101d\u0101tiem gadiem liktenis tev uzliek stopz\u012bmi. Nenolieg\u0161u, man\u0101 gad\u012bjum\u0101 \u0161\u012b ir br\u012bnumaina atgrie\u0161an\u0101s, kur pateic\u012bba pien\u0101kas \u013coti daudziem cilv\u0113kiem, bet galvenok\u0101rt Dievam, ka man visp\u0101r \u0161\u0101da iesp\u0113ja tika dota. Esmu lieciniece tam, ka cilv\u0113ks var atgriezties dz\u012bv\u0113 un \u013coti daudz ko izdar\u012bt. Ta\u010du no drup\u0101m piecelties var tikai ar vienu v\u0101rdu\u00a0\u2013 m\u012blest\u012bba!<\/p>\n

Un es nedom\u0101ju m\u012blest\u012bbu \u0161aur\u0101k\u0101 izpratn\u0113, bet beznosac\u012bjumu m\u012blest\u012bbu, kas valda starp cilv\u0113kiem. Kam\u0113r tu s\u0113di drup\u0101s, sakot, ka nekam nav j\u0113gas, viss ir sabrucis, pasaule ir sajukusi pr\u0101t\u0101, tad ce\u013ca no t\u0101 \u0101r\u0101 nav. Bet, ja ir sp\u0113ks un ener\u0123ija, un galvenais\u00a0\u2013 v\u0113lme piecelties, tevi gaida br\u012bnumaini piedz\u012bvojumi. Ne katram cilv\u0113kam \u0161\u0101da iesp\u0113ja tiek dota, tom\u0113r ar\u012b neb\u016bt ne visi, kam tiek dota, saprot, kas t\u0101 ir par d\u0101vanu!\u00a0<\/p>\n

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Kad ar mani tas viss notika, cilv\u0113ki apk\u0101rt nesp\u0113ja notic\u0113t\u00a0\u2013 Nora, tu!? Tu ta\u010du esi visstipr\u0101k\u0101 no mums!<\/p>\n

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\u00abJa tie\u0161\u0101m tava s\u016bt\u012bba \u0161aj\u0101 pasaul\u0113 ir b\u016bt rakstniekam\u00a0\u2013 t\u0101 nepaz\u016bd nekad un nekur, pat ne cilv\u0113cisko v\u0101j\u012bbu dzi\u013c\u0101kajos za\u0146\u0137os, v\u0113l vair\u0101k\u00a0\u2013 ja izdodas atgriezties dz\u012bv\u0113, esot tuvu aizie\u0161anai, t\u0101 atkal atgrie\u017eas,\u00bb \u0161os v\u0101rdus tu rakst\u012bji sav\u0101 esej\u0101 gr\u0101mat\u0101 Rakstniec\u012bbas laboratorija.<\/p>\n

V\u0113l pag\u0101ju\u0161\u0101 gada oktobr\u012b dzim\u0161anas dien\u0101 dom\u0101ju, ka sav\u0101 dz\u012bv\u0113 esmu gana daudz rakst\u012bjusi un tagad p\u0101rsl\u0113g\u0161os uz \u0113diena gatavo\u0161anu un k\u016bku cep\u0161anu, kas man \u013coti labi padodas. Bet tad n\u0101ca \u0161\u012b eseja, kaut k\u0101das sl\u016b\u017eas par\u0101va va\u013c\u0101, un es s\u0101ku rakst\u012bt savu jauno rom\u0101nu J\u014dna par kurjeru J\u014dnu\u00a0\u2013 m\u016bsdienu puisi, kur\u0161 dz\u012bvi neuztver p\u0101r\u0101k nopietni, un lielo zilo vali.\u00a0Turkl\u0101t \u013coti \u012bs\u0101 laik\u0101 kop\u0101 ar m\u012b\u013cu draudzeni, m\u0101kslinieci Kristi\u0101nu Dimiteri esam rad\u012bju\u0161as pirmo b\u0113rnu gr\u0101matu Draugi. Vabul\u012b\u0161a un Pif\u0101na piedz\u012bvojumi, un zi\u0146a, ka gr\u0101mata jau ir izn\u0101kusi, sasniedza mani te, Meksik\u0101.\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u2013 Nora, m\u0113s abas, \u0161\u0137iet, sazin\u0101mies visu \u0161o gadu\u00a0\u2013 teici, ka sarunai v\u0113l nav laiks\u2026 Vai t\u0101p\u0113c \u0161obr\u012bd esi gatava run\u0101t, ka tev ir, ko par\u0101d\u012bt?\u00a0

\n\u2013 J\u0101. Tagad, ar tevi run\u0101jot, s\u0113\u017eu uz balkona Gvadalahar\u0101. Aiz muguras jau ir padar\u012bti darbi k\u0101 Eiropas Savien\u012bbas goda autorei otraj\u0101 liel\u0101kaj\u0101 gr\u0101matu tirg\u016b p\u0113c Londonas, kur prezent\u0113ju savas gr\u0101matas M\u0101tes piens un \u016adens mirdz\u0113\u0161ana. \u013boti priec\u0101jos satikt savus m\u012b\u013cus draugus\u00a0\u2013 Elitu un Kl\u0101su V\u0101veres, kuri \u0161eit dz\u012bvo. Elita atbrauca uz Gvadalaharu un kop\u0101 ar mani piedz\u012bvoja manu profesion\u0101lo st\u0101stu. Nekas no t\u0101 nav fiziski viegli, jo esmu savos skaistajos piecdesmit \u010detros, un fiziskie sp\u0113ki tom\u0113r iet mazum\u0101, tom\u0113r tagad ir cit\u0101das saj\u016btas, sal\u012bdzinot ar 2018. gadu, kad \u013coti person\u012bgas izpluin\u012b\u0161anas situ\u0101cij\u0101 biju dienas autore Londonas gr\u0101matu gadatirg\u016b. Atceros, k\u0101 es klupdama un krizdama skr\u0113ju, sniedzot piecpa\u00addsmit interviju dien\u0101, nevar\u0113ju aizmigt, c\u0113los agri no r\u012bta, lai visu pasp\u0113tu, jo to vajag Latvijai, jo vajag atv\u0113rt durvis uz britu tirgu. Es nevar\u0113ju iek\u0101pt lidma\u0161\u012bn\u0101, k\u0101 man k\u0101jas \u013codz\u012bj\u0101s. Braucu pa pasauli, uzst\u0101jos milz\u012bgu auditoriju priek\u0161\u0101 gan Jap\u0101n\u0101, gan Amerik\u0101, un lik\u0101s\u00a0\u2013 j\u0101, tas ir \u012bstais vilnis, kas mani nes, un b\u016bs v\u0113l augst\u0101ks vilnis\u2026 Bet nesen Kopenh\u0101gen\u0101 p\u0113c filmas M\u0101tes piens un burzi\u0146a klusi\u0146\u0101m pazudu un g\u0101ju viena pa Kopenh\u0101genas iel\u0101m un teicu: paldies, ka man \u0161is mirklis ir dots! Jo dz\u012bve ir \u0161eit un tagad, un absol\u016bti visas maz\u0101s lietas ir svar\u012bgas. T\u0101da liela transform\u0101cija ar mani ir notikusi.<\/p>\n

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\u2013 Run\u0101jot tu visu laiku smaidi, tom\u0113r gribu uzman\u012bgi pieskarties jaut\u0101jumam par tavu \u00abatra\u0161anos uz m\u016b\u017e\u012bg\u0101s aizie\u0161anas robe\u017eas\u00bb, k\u0101 to pag\u0101ju\u0161\u0101 gada vasar\u0101 publiski atkl\u0101ja dzejniece un rakstniece M\u0101ra Z\u0101l\u012bte, kad l\u016bdza sabiedr\u012bbas atbalstu. Kas \u012bsti toreiz notika?\u00a0

\n\u2013 Run\u0101jot metafor\u0101s\u2026 S\u0113\u017eot smalk\u0101 Kopenh\u0101genas kafijas veikal\u0101 un dzerot vislab\u0101ko kafiju, es nedom\u0101ju, ka man tas pa\u0161saprotami pien\u0101kas. Ta\u010du pien\u0101k dz\u012bv\u0113 laiks, kad liekas, ka mums kaut kas pien\u0101kas. Un tie\u0161i tad dz\u012bve un liktenis uzliek visliel\u0101ko p\u0101rbaud\u012bjumu. Man\u0101 gad\u012bjum\u0101 tas bija diezgan smagu notikumu kopums. Vispirms t\u0101 bija \u0161\u0137ir\u0161an\u0101s no m\u012b\u013cot\u0101 cilv\u0113ka. Tad pand\u0113mija\u2026 Man jau no pirm\u0101s dienas bija saj\u016bta, ka pasaul\u0113 notiek kaut kas briesm\u012bgs, tum\u0161s, nepareizs, turkl\u0101t es nepak\u013c\u0101vos tolaik m\u016bsu valst\u012b valdo\u0161ajiem autorit\u0101rajiem likumiem, k\u0101di nebija cit\u0101s demokr\u0101tisk\u0101s valst\u012bs. T\u0101 laikam izpaud\u0101s mana iek\u0161\u0113j\u0101 br\u012bv\u012bba\u00a0\u2013 nedar\u012bt to, ko man uzspie\u017e. Bet tas man maks\u0101ja \u013coti d\u0101rgi. Biju ielikta Latvijas mediju melnaj\u0101 sarakst\u0101, nevar\u0113ju ieiet nevien\u0101 restor\u0101n\u0101, ta\u010du kaut k\u0101d\u0101 veid\u0101, veicot testus, es tom\u0113r nok\u013cuvu l\u012bdz Madrides gr\u0101matu tirgum.\u00a0<\/p>\n

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Dz\u012bvoju absol\u016bti nosl\u0113gti no sabiedr\u012bbas un kopum\u0101 atteicu aptuveni tr\u012bsdesmit interviju.<\/p>\n

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\u2013 Neesmu dzird\u0113jusi par t\u0101du melno sarakstu. Tas bija saist\u012bts ar tavu l\u0113mumu nevakcin\u0113ties?

\n\u2013 J\u0101, es centos br\u012bvi paust savas domas, bet Latvij\u0101 tas nebija iesp\u0113jams. Valst\u012b, kuru es \u013coti m\u012blu un m\u012bl\u0113\u0161u l\u012bdz m\u016b\u017ea galam. Jo es rakstu un rakst\u012b\u0161u tikai latvie\u0161u valod\u0101. Vistrak\u0101kais bija apjaust, ka cilv\u0113ki, kurus zin\u0101ji, sp\u0113ja par tevi dom\u0101t, ka tu \u0161o iz\u0161\u0137ir\u0161anos dz\u012bv\u0113 esi izdar\u012bjusi tikai, k\u0101 mans skolot\u0101js Dzintars Sodums teiktu,\u00a0\u2013 labuma piena d\u0113\u013c. Ka esi piesl\u0113jusies vajadz\u012bgajam virzienam vai, nedod Dievs, politiskajai partijai. Mani tas \u0161ok\u0113ja l\u012bdz t\u0101dam l\u012bmenim, ka es iegrimu zem\u016bdens pasaul\u0113. Un tagad tie pa\u0161i cilv\u0113ki n\u0101k man kl\u0101t un sniedz roku. Man nav nek\u0101da naida pret vi\u0146iem, bet es izdz\u012bvoju ar pavisam citu cilv\u0113ku ener\u0123\u0113tiku un gaismu.\u00a0<\/p>\n

J\u0101, es non\u0101cu t\u0101d\u0101 tunel\u012b, ka izv\u0113l\u0113jos pati pielikt punktu \u0161ai dz\u012bvei. Tom\u0113r, izg\u0101jusi \u0161o neb\u016bt ne vieglo ce\u013cu, tagad varu teikt, ka m\u0113s nedr\u012bkstam to dar\u012bt. Jo tas nav m\u016bsu zi\u0146\u0101. Ta\u010du, izdarot ko t\u0101du, \u013coti daudzu cilv\u0113ku ac\u012bs tu k\u013c\u016bsti v\u0113l vair\u0101k izstumtais, jo \u0161\u0137iet, ka ar tevi vairs nevar\u0113s r\u0113\u0137in\u0101ties, jo tu jau sazin ko vari izdar\u012bt\u2026 T\u0101p\u0113c sekoja \u0161is mans klus\u0113\u0161anas gads.<\/p>\n

Dz\u012bvoju absol\u016bti nosl\u0113gti no sabiedr\u012bbas un kopum\u0101 atteicu aptuveni tr\u012bsdesmit interviju, kas sakrita ar filmas M\u0101tes piens pirmizr\u0101di Latvij\u0101. Lai gan pand\u0113mija ir pag\u0101jusi, \u013coti daudz kas diem\u017e\u0113l nav main\u012bjies. Ir \u0101rpr\u0101t\u012bgs bezdibenis starp politisko valdo\u0161o varu un cilv\u0113kiem, kas aiz noguruma ir no t\u0101s nov\u0113rsu\u0161ies. Vien\u012bg\u0101 iesp\u0113ja ir turpin\u0101t dar\u012bt savu darbu god\u012bgi un m\u0113\u0123in\u0101t rado\u0161aj\u0101s izpausm\u0113s iziet atkal \u0101rpus noteiktajiem r\u0101mjiem vai \u0123eogr\u0101fisk\u0101m robe\u017e\u0101m un atnest gabali\u0146u pozit\u012bv\u0101s ener\u0123ijas un gaismas atpaka\u013c. Pat taj\u0101 smagaj\u0101 laik\u0101 teicu, ka nekur no Latvijas prom nebrauk\u0161u, un joproj\u0101m uzskatu, ka Latvijas n\u0101kotne b\u016bs atkar\u012bga no t\u0101, cik skaitliski m\u0113s \u0161eit paliksim. K\u0101p\u0113c gan lai m\u0113s nepiedz\u012bvotu v\u0113l k\u0101das p\u0101rmai\u0146as?! K\u0101 s\u0101kum\u0101 teicu\u00a0\u2013 esot drup\u0101s un tikai run\u0101jot par t\u0101m, nav jau sp\u0113ka piecelties. Ir j\u0101atrod iemesls\u00a0\u2013 man t\u0101 bija milz\u012bg\u0101 cilv\u0113ku m\u012blest\u012bba, ko jutu, un nesp\u0113ju iedom\u0101ties, ka sp\u0113tu to nodot. T\u0101p\u0113c es absol\u016bti neko neno\u017e\u0113loju no\u2026 Es negribu teikt\u00a0\u2013 iepriek\u0161\u0113j\u0101s dz\u012bves, jo ar\u012b t\u0101 bija mana dz\u012bve.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Par gr\u0101matu M\u0101tes piens esi teikusi, ka \u00abbalst\u012bta \u013coti personisk\u0101 st\u0101st\u0101, \u0161\u012b gr\u0101mata izr\u0101d\u012bj\u0101s vajadz\u012bga daudziem m\u0101j\u0101s un pasaul\u0113, bet mani t\u0101 pamaz\u0101m ap\u0113da\u00bb\u2026

\n\u2013 \u2026 jo es \u013c\u0101vos tai mani ap\u0113st. Atceros, k\u0101 Baiba Broka man teica\u00a0\u2013 ja vi\u0146a p\u0113c piecu stundu izr\u0101des aizies m\u0101j\u0101s un turpin\u0101s b\u016bt Aspazija, nekas labs no t\u0101 neb\u016bs! Bet es laikam tik \u013coti salipu kop\u0101 ar gr\u0101matas st\u0101stu, ka tas bija v\u0113l viens iemesls, kas mani noveda l\u012bdz nulles punktam. Gr\u0101matas J\u014dna p\u0113cv\u0101rd\u0101 es rakstu par to, ka dz\u012bve ir p\u0101rv\u0113rtusies par m\u0101kslu\u00a0\u2013 m\u0101kslu izdz\u012bvot. T\u0101p\u0113c uz daudz\u0101m m\u0101kslas izpausm\u0113m vairs nevaru rea\u0123\u0113t, at\u0161\u0137irot t\u0101s no dz\u012bves. Jo mans person\u012bgais ce\u013c\u0161 pier\u0101da, ka nav \u0161o divu pasau\u013cu, tas ir kop\u012bgi sav\u012bts ce\u013c\u0161. Atceros, kad las\u012bju K\u0101renas Bliksenas vai Vird\u017e\u012bnijas Vulfas st\u0101stus, es it k\u0101 nodal\u012bju\u00a0\u2013 nu, j\u0101, vi\u0146as bija fantastiskas rakstnieces, bet, redz, dz\u012bv\u0113 notika t\u0101\u2026 Vai m\u016bsu pa\u0161u Amandas Aizpurietes st\u0101sts\u00a0\u2013 kad vi\u0146a katastrof\u0101l\u0101 fizisk\u0101 un atkar\u012bbas situ\u0101cij\u0101 uzrakst\u012bja savu \u0123eni\u0101lo dzejo\u013cu kr\u0101jumu, un viss beidz\u0101s t\u0101, k\u0101 beidz\u0101s. T\u0101p\u0113c, ja ir j\u0101iz\u0161\u0137iras starp m\u0101kslu un dz\u012bvi, ej dz\u012bv\u0113, st\u0101di pu\u0137es, cep k\u016bkas un aizver ciet m\u0101kslas durvis! Jo nekas\u00a0\u2013 absol\u016bti nekas!\u00a0\u2013 \u0161aj\u0101 pasaul\u0113 nav svar\u012bg\u0101ks par br\u012bdi, kad pavasar\u012b st\u0101di pu\u0137es, apskauj savu m\u012b\u013coto cilv\u0113ku vai b\u0113rnu vai vienk\u0101r\u0161i skaties, k\u0101 saule aust un riet. To es saku no sirds!<\/p>\n

\u2013 Tev pa\u0161ai \u0161\u0137iet, ka bija j\u0101izv\u0113las starp dz\u012bvi un m\u0101kslu?

\n\u2013 J\u0101, bet es to nem\u0101c\u0113ju. Tom\u0113r man\u012b atrad\u0101s sp\u0113ks atn\u0101kt fiziski un gar\u012bgi atpaka\u013c dz\u012bv\u0113. Ta\u010du, ja atkal jut\u012b\u0161u, ka nesp\u0113ju \u0161o no\u0161\u0137\u012brumu starp dz\u012bvi un m\u0101kslu izdar\u012bt, es iz\u0161\u0137ir\u0161os par labu dz\u012bvei, pu\u0137\u0113m, k\u016bk\u0101m, sunim, m\u012b\u013cotajam cilv\u0113kam, krustmeitai, m\u0101sai, t\u0113vam, vi\u0146a sievai, visiem maniem m\u012b\u013cajiem cilv\u0113kiem, kuriem varu sag\u0101d\u0101t milz\u012bgu prieku ne jau t\u0101p\u0113c, ka esmu rakstniece.\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u2013 Vai gr\u0101mat\u0101 J\u014dna b\u016bs atbl\u0101zma no notiku\u0161\u0101? Varb\u016bt k\u0101dreiz \u0161o atra\u0161anos uz m\u016b\u017e\u012bbas sliek\u0161\u0146a atspogu\u013cosi?

\n\u2013 Vispirms es grib\u0113tu, lai cilv\u0113ki \u0161o gr\u0101matu izlasa, jo, manupr\u0101t, t\u0101 rezon\u0113s ar daudzu cilv\u0113ku iek\u0161\u0113j\u0101m izj\u016bt\u0101m. T\u0101 ir piln\u012bgi cita pieredze, pavisam jaun\u0101 gaism\u0101. Valis izgl\u0101bs J\u014dnu un J\u014dna\u00a0\u2013 vali. Laim\u012bgas beigas, bet\u00a0\u2013 k\u0101p\u0113c lai es neat\u013cautos gr\u0101matu ar laim\u012bg\u0101m beig\u0101m? P\u0113c visiem notikumiem, kas s\u0101k\u0101s ar pand\u0113miju, turpin\u0101j\u0101s ar Ukrainas karu, daudzi jauni cilv\u0113ki saka\u00a0\u2013 vai ir j\u0113ga rad\u012bt jaunu b\u016btni tik trak\u0101 pasaul\u0113? Taj\u0101 pa\u0161\u0101 laik\u0101 man apk\u0101rt ir sadzimis tik daudz mazu b\u0113rnu! K\u0101 Juris Kaukulis dzied\u0101ja sav\u0101 dziesm\u0101: \u00abT\u0101s v\u0113l nav beigas, tas v\u0113l nav viss!\u00bb Un t\u0101da v\u0113rt\u012bba katrai min\u016btei un stundai k\u0101 \u0161obr\u012bd man dz\u012bv\u0113 nekad nav bijusi! Lai gan man ar\u012b agr\u0101k bija saj\u016bta, ka neko negribu atlikt uz r\u012btdienu, tagad tas notiek pats no sevis. Es nez\u016bdos par liet\u0101m, kas notiek apk\u0101rt, ne\u013cauju t\u0101m mani ieraut, ievilkt un purin\u0101t. \u0160obr\u012bd \u013coti skaidri redzu savu ce\u013cu.\u00a0<\/p>\n

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Es nekad dz\u012bv\u0113 vairs nepaie\u0161u gar\u0101m nevienam pakritu\u0161am cilv\u0113kam\u00a0\u2013 ne p\u0113c rado\u0161as ball\u012btes, ne cilv\u0113kam, kas pakr\u012bt katru dienu. <\/p>\n

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Un v\u0113l, manupr\u0101t, par to vajag run\u0101t atkl\u0101ti: \u013coti bie\u017ei rado\u0161o cilv\u0113ku sp\u0113ku uztur\u0113\u0161ana iet kop\u0101 ar blakus liet\u0101m\u00a0\u2013 liekas, ka v\u012bns pacels sp\u0101rnos, pal\u012bdz\u0113s relaks\u0113ties, l\u012bdz nemanot ievelk tevi sav\u0101 pasaul\u0113. Tev liekas\u00a0\u2013 viss k\u0101rt\u012bb\u0101, visi t\u0101 dara. Esmu nol\u0113musi k\u0101du laiku vairs nelietot alkoholu, un j\u016btos \u013coti labi. Noliecu galvu Raimonda Paula priek\u0161\u0101, iedom\u0101joties, cik gr\u016bti vi\u0146am visus gadus bijis atrasties m\u016bzi\u0137u sabiedr\u012bb\u0101. Jo atgrie\u017eoties redzu, ka apk\u0101rt jau nekas nav main\u012bjies. Tikai mana attieksme ir main\u012bjusies. Es nekad dz\u012bv\u0113 vairs nepaie\u0161u gar\u0101m nevienam pakritu\u0161am cilv\u0113kam\u00a0\u2013 ne p\u0113c rado\u0161as ball\u012btes, ne cilv\u0113kam, kas pakr\u012bt katru dienu. B\u016b\u0161u spie\u0137is cilv\u0113ka dz\u012bves dramatiskajos mirk\u013cos.\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u0160\u012b nebija pirm\u0101 pieredze, kad atradies uz smalk\u0101s robe\u017eas starp dz\u012bvi un n\u0101vi. Pirms da\u017eiem gadiem p\u0113c \u0161\u0137ir\u0161an\u0101s piedz\u012bvoji vesel\u012bbas probl\u0113mas.

\n\u2013 J\u0101, tas bija saist\u012bts ar slim\u012bbu, ar kuru c\u012bn\u012bjos divdesmit gadu. Ar modernas terapijas veidu izdev\u0101s to uzvar\u0113t un tikt no t\u0101s va\u013c\u0101. 1998. gad\u0101 es pazaud\u0113ju b\u0113rni\u0146u un man iel\u0113ja C hepat\u012btu, kas l\u012bdz tam bija latent\u0101 st\u0101vokl\u012b, bet uzspr\u0101ga br\u012bd\u012b, kad sapratu, ka cilv\u0113ks, kuram uztic\u0113jos un kura d\u012bvain\u012bbas biju pie\u0146\u0113musi, mani k\u0101 cilv\u0113ku un sievieti ir smagi nodevis. Bet man izdev\u0101s iz\u0137epuroties. Lai gan es neko neesmu aizmirsusi, man nav p\u0101rest\u012bbas saj\u016btas, k\u0101p\u0113c ar mani t\u0101 notika, k\u0101p\u0113c man, t\u0101dai k\u0101rt\u012bgai meitenei, \u0161\u0101di p\u0101rbaud\u012bjumi dz\u012bv\u0113 uzlikti\u2026 Jo, ja tu dz\u012bvo ar t\u0101du saj\u016btu, tad ar\u012b nekas labs nesan\u0101ks.\u00a0<\/p>\n

Otra lieta\u00a0\u2013 ja neizdari secin\u0101jumus, atrodoties uz robe\u017eas, un pirmo reizi es uz t\u0101s biju ne jau savas izv\u0113les d\u0113\u013c, tad ac\u012bmredzot t\u0101 skola v\u0113l man bija priek\u0161\u0101. Man lik\u0101s, ka esmu varena, stipra latvie\u0161u sieviete, kura ar visu tiks gal\u0101, kura, l\u016bk, pievar\u0113ja \u0161\u0101du slim\u012bbu, iztur\u0113ja terapiju k\u0101 teicamniece, iev\u0113rojot visus nor\u0101d\u012bjumus, atkal bija uz pek\u0101m un turpin\u0101ja drag\u0101t pa liter\u0101riem festiv\u0101liem. Pa vidu \u0161\u0137irta laul\u012bba\u00a0\u2013 tas nekas, p\u0101rdz\u012bvosim ar\u012b to! Maucam tik uz priek\u0161u! N\u0101k pand\u0113mija, sabr\u016bk cilv\u0113cisk\u0101s un finansi\u0101l\u0101s iesp\u0113jas\u00a0\u2013 nekas, ar\u012b to p\u0101rdz\u012bvosim! Visu izdar\u012bsim! Kad ar mani tas viss notika, cilv\u0113ki apk\u0101rt nesp\u0113ja notic\u0113t\u00a0\u2013 Nora, tu!? Tu ta\u010du esi visstipr\u0101k\u0101 no mums! Un tad tu paskaties spogul\u012b un pati sev pasaki, ka neesi stipra, ka ar\u012b tu vari nokrist. Tik zemu, ka pati nevar\u0113ji iedom\u0101ties, cik zemu. Un tad piecelies. Un ej t\u0101l\u0101k!\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u2013 Tev bijis daudz p\u0101rdz\u012bvojumu, bet neviens no tiem tevi nesalauza, pat pieredze ar mammu deva tev sp\u0113ku uzrakst\u012bt gr\u0101matu M\u0101tes piens. Vai var teikt, ka ar \u0161o k\u013cuvi ievainojama?

\n\u2013 J\u0101, es k\u013cuvu ievainojama. Lai gan pa\u0161ai lik\u0101s, ka ar mani t\u0101 nevar notikt! Es pati tik\u0161u gal\u0101! Bet t\u0101 nav\u2026 T\u0101p\u0113c prasiet citiem pal\u012bdz\u012bbu, atkl\u0101jieties, izst\u0101stiet savu b\u0113du. Man ir \u013coti ilgsto\u0161as draudz\u012bbas, un k\u0101p\u0113c gan vi\u0146u priek\u0161\u0101 izlikties k\u0101 klases salidojumos, kad cilv\u0113ki, no kuriem daudziem \u012bsten\u012bb\u0101 m\u0101j\u0101s ir katastrofa, skaisti sa\u0123\u0113rbu\u0161ies st\u0101sta, ka viss ir k\u0101rt\u012bb\u0101. Kam\u0113r tu run\u0101si t\u0101, it k\u0101 m\u0101j\u0101s viss b\u016btu labi, bet taj\u0101 pa\u0161\u0101 laik\u0101 v\u0101rt\u012bsies pa gr\u012bdu, pl\u0113s\u012bsi sev matus, c\u012bn\u012bsies ar depresiju, bet, izejot no m\u0101jas, sa\u0146emsies, satais\u012bsies un mirdz\u0113si, dodot sp\u0113ku citiem cilv\u0113kiem,\u00a0\u2013 tikm\u0113r nekas nemain\u012bsies. Man vairs negribas melot un izlikties. Interesant\u0101kais, ka joproj\u0101m atrodas cilv\u0113ki, kas saka\u00a0\u2013 nu, un vai t\u0101p\u0113c tagad mums b\u016btu j\u016bs j\u0101\u017e\u0113lo!? Bet ne jau t\u0101d\u0113\u013c st\u0101stu! Ja m\u0113s varam cits citam pal\u012bdz\u0113t un roku pastiept, tad dar\u0101m to! Neieraujamies savos burbu\u013cos!\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u0160ovasar man bija fantastisks piedz\u012bvojums\u00a0\u2013 pateicoties Ingai \u0100belei, kura uzrakst\u012bjusi gr\u0101matu Lidijas ziedi\u0146i, man izdev\u0101s pirmo reizi satikt Lidiju Lasmani-Doro\u0146inu un kop\u0101 pavad\u012bt vienu dienu S\u0101rnat\u0113. M\u0113s trijat\u0101 g\u0101j\u0101m pa lauku ce\u013cu, kad vi\u0146a teica: es jau \u012bsti neredzu, bet, zin\u0101t, meitenes, tikko dz\u0113rves aizlaid\u0101s, un p\u0113c smar\u017eas j\u016btu\u00a0\u2013 j\u016bra ir tuvu. Vi\u0146\u0101 ir t\u0101ds iek\u0161\u0113jais sp\u0113ks un gaisma! Pras\u012bju Lidijai, k\u0101 vi\u0146a p\u0113c visa pieredz\u0113t\u0101 var\u0113ja piedot! Bet vi\u0146a teica: ja tu nepiedod otram, tu nepiedod sev, un, ja nepiedod sev, tu esi sasl\u0113gts sav\u0101s greizsird\u012bbas, naida un atrieb\u012bbas va\u017e\u0101s, un tas sa\u0113d no iek\u0161puses.<\/p>\n

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\u2013 M\u0113s jau it k\u0101 visi to zin\u0101m, cik svar\u012bgi ir piedot, bet\u2026\u00a0

\n\u2013 \u2026 bet tas nav viegli. Un sajust pa \u012bstam piedo\u0161anas br\u012bdi\u00a0\u2013 t\u0101 ir liela laimes saj\u016bta. Agr\u0101kaj\u0101s intervijas teicu, ka tas ir iek\u0161\u0113js darbs ar sevi, bet nevajadz\u0113ja klaus\u012bties manos v\u0101rdos, jo es nemaz nezin\u0101ju, ko tas noz\u012bm\u0113. Jo tad, kad tu pa \u012bstam to ce\u013cu esi izg\u0101jis, tu zini to saj\u016btu. Un tikai tu pats iek\u0161\u0113ji izv\u0113l\u0113sies, vai gribi \u0161o ce\u013cu iet vai ar\u012b palikt izj\u016bt\u0101s, kas grau\u017e un kremt.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Vai savam biju\u0161ajam v\u012bram esi piedevusi?\u00a0

\n\u2013 J\u0101! Ta\u010du es visp\u0101r par to vairs negribu run\u0101t\u2026 Interesanti, ka p\u0113c vienpadsmit gadu ilgas pieredzes Gruzij\u0101 te, Meksik\u0101, j\u016btos apdeidota, jo man visp\u0101r nav bail no liet\u0101m, par kur\u0101m Eiropas t\u016brists teiktu\u00a0\u2013 \u0101rpr\u0101ts! Starp citu, kad biju aizbraukusi uz Kau\u0146u, pret\u012b viesn\u012bcai iev\u0113roju kato\u013cu l\u016bg\u0161anu namu\u00a0\u2013 Bodbes klostera miniat\u016bru. Netic\u0113ju sav\u0101m ac\u012bm!\u00a0<\/p>\n

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Vienm\u0113r, kad paliku viena pati ar sevi, lik\u0101s, ka kaut kas nav k\u0101rt\u012bb\u0101\u00a0\u2013 k\u0101p\u0113c man nav drauga vai v\u012bra?<\/p>\n

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\u2013 Vai p\u0113d\u0113jos gados esi bijusi Gruzij\u0101?

\n\u2013 N\u0113, un pagaid\u0101m nav t\u0101das v\u0113lmes. Nezinu, k\u0101 dz\u012bve turpin\u0101s att\u012bst\u012bties \u2013 iesp\u0113jams, k\u0101dreiz v\u0113l tur nok\u013c\u016b\u0161u! Starp citu, savai dakterei, br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bgam cilv\u0113kam, Guntai And\u017e\u0101nei ruden\u012b noorganiz\u0113ju ce\u013cojumu uz Gruziju un ieteicu aizbraukt ar\u012b uz Bodbes klosteri. M\u0101sas tur mani \u013coti labi atcer\u0113j\u0101s un pat ats\u016bt\u012bja pa\u0161u liet\u0101s vaska svec\u012btes. Dom\u0101ju\u00a0\u2013 ja tas ir bijis pa \u012bstam, tu paliec cilv\u0113ka sird\u012b, un tad tu vari satikt vi\u0146u p\u0113c gadiem, un satik\u0161an\u0101s b\u016bs gai\u0161a un priec\u012bga.\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u2013 Kas tev \u0161obr\u012bd dod sievi\u0161\u0137\u012bgu laimes un piepild\u012bjuma izj\u016btu?

\n\u2013 Tas, ka varu b\u016bt mier\u012bga! Dz\u012bve pati par sevi man sniedz \u0161o sievi\u0161\u0137\u012bbas un laimes izj\u016btu. Pirms pieciem, \u010detriem, pat trim gadiem es neb\u016btu var\u0113jusi iedom\u0101ties, ka tas ir iesp\u0113jams. Jo vienm\u0113r, kad paliku viena pati ar sevi, lik\u0101s, ka kaut kas nav k\u0101rt\u012bb\u0101\u00a0\u2013 k\u0101p\u0113c man nav drauga vai v\u012bra? Bet tagad j\u016btos labi ar sevi! T\u0101ds ir mans iek\u0161\u0113jais status quo. Pat nezinu, vai \u0161o miera un pilnest\u012bbas izj\u016btu \u0161aj\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b main\u012btu pret kaut ko citu. Neviens gan no mums nezina, k\u0101 b\u016bs.\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u2013 Kad \u0161\u0137\u012bries, teici, ka negribi dz\u012bvot t\u0101, lai cilv\u0113kiem no malas liktos, k\u0101da br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bga p\u0101ra sast\u0101vda\u013ca esi, jo visvair\u0101k gribi justies laim\u012bga. Lai iz\u0161\u0137irtos, ir vajadz\u012bga liela drosme, vai ne?

\n\u2013 J\u0101, katra \u0161\u0137ir\u0161an\u0101s sievietei ir \u013coti drosm\u012bgs solis. Ja ir b\u0113rni\u00a0\u2013 tas ir p\u0101rdrosm\u012bgs solis. Zinu, ka daudzas sievietes man apk\u0101rt izv\u0113las neredz\u0113t to, kas notiek\u2026 Bet tas nav mans ce\u013c\u0161, jo es sevi sagrautu un izputin\u0101tu. Es ta\u010du to jau piedz\u012bvoju! Ja sagrauju un izputinu sevi, es sagrauju savu br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bgo krustmeitu, nodaru s\u0101pes m\u0101sai un t\u0113vam, savam m\u012b\u013cajam sunim P\u0113rkonam, saviem draugiem, v\u012brie\u0161iem un sieviet\u0113m, saviem las\u012bt\u0101jiem. Tad k\u0101da j\u0113ga, ja es nodaru s\u0101pes tik daudziem cilv\u0113kiem? Es esmu atpaka\u013c, lai rad\u012btu prieku!\u00a0<\/p>\n

\u2013 Zinu, ka janv\u0101ra s\u0101kum\u0101 aicin\u0101si cilv\u0113kus uz Noras m\u0101ju, kur iepaz\u012bstin\u0101si ar savu pieredzi rakstniec\u012bb\u0101. Ko tu pati gaidi no n\u0101kam\u0101 gada?\u00a0

\n\u2013 T\u0101 k\u0101 es neko daudz negaid\u012bju no \u0161\u0101 gada, bet tas man pie\u0161\u0137\u012bra tik daudz, tad es at\u013cau\u0161os neb\u016bt uzst\u0101j\u012bga, nerakst\u012bt nek\u0101das v\u0113lmes\u00a0\u2013 ne aug\u0161up, ne Ziemassv\u0113tku vec\u012btim. Es pie\u0146em\u0161u visu, ko man dos! Un cent\u012b\u0161os p\u0113c iesp\u0113jas, savu sp\u0113ku robe\u017e\u0101s, god\u012bgi to izpild\u012bt. Bet pie\u0146em\u0161u visu.<\/p>\n

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Pieturz\u012bmes<\/p>\n


\n\u2022 \u00a0Stud\u0113jusi latvie\u0161u filolo\u0123iju Latvijas Universit\u0101t\u0113, ang\u013cu valodu un literat\u016bru Kolumbijas Universit\u0101t\u0113 Mis\u016bri ASV.\u00a0

\n\u2022 \u00a0Uzrakst\u012bjusi rom\u0101nus M\u0101tes piens, Dz\u012bves svin\u0113\u0161ana, Amour fou, Jaunavas m\u0101c\u012bba, V\u012brs zilaj\u0101 lietusm\u0113tel\u012bt\u012b, \u016adens mirdz\u0113\u0161ana, k\u0101 ar\u012b jaun\u0101ko J\u014dna. Vair\u0101ki st\u0101stu kr\u0101jumi.

\n\u2022 \u00a0Darbi tulkoti ang\u013cu, krievu, ma\u0137edonie\u0161u, hindi, d\u0101\u0146u, igau\u0146u, zviedru, gruz\u012bnu u. c. valod\u0101s.\u00a0

\n\u2022 \u00a0Sast\u0101d\u012bjusi trimdas rakstnieka Dzintara Soduma\u00a0Kopotos rakstus 7 s\u0113jumos.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"\u00abPien\u0101k dz\u012bv\u0113 laiks, kad liekas, ka mums kaut kas pien\u0101kas. Un tie\u0161i tad dz\u012bve un liktenis uzliek visliel\u0101ko…\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":94312,"comment_status":"","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[23,28,29,32,33,22,30,31,35,39,38,36,37,34,40,20,26,27,24,25,21],"class_list":{"0":"post-94311","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-aktualitates","8":"tag-aktualitates","9":"tag-breaking-news","10":"tag-breakingnews","11":"tag-featured-news","12":"tag-featurednews","13":"tag-headlines","14":"tag-latest-news","15":"tag-latestnews","16":"tag-latvia","17":"tag-latvian","18":"tag-latviesu","19":"tag-latviesu-valoda","20":"tag-latviesuvaloda","21":"tag-latvija","22":"tag-lv","23":"tag-news","24":"tag-popularakas-zinas","25":"tag-popularakaszinas","26":"tag-top-stories","27":"tag-topstories","28":"tag-zinas"},"share_on_mastodon":{"url":"https:\/\/pubeurope.com\/@lv\/115837517386941719","error":""},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/94311","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=94311"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/94311\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/94312"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=94311"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=94311"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=94311"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}