Parts of the memoir are deeply personal.<\/p>\n
Nicola Sturgeon says she may have appeared to be a confident and combative leader but underneath she is a “painfully shy” introvert who has “always struggled to believe in herself.”<\/p>\n
She writes in detail about the “excruciating pain” and heartbreak of suffering a miscarriage after becoming pregnant at the age of 40.<\/p>\n
“Later, what I would feel most guilty about were the days I had wished I wasn’t pregnant,” she says.<\/p>\n
Sturgeon touches on the end of her marriage, saying “I love him” but the strain of the past couple of years was “impossible to bear.”<\/p>\n
She also writes about her experience of the menopause, explaining that “one of my deepest anxieties was that I would suddenly forget my words midway through an answer” at First Minister’s Question Time.<\/p>\n
“My heart would race whenever I was on my feet in the Chamber which was debilitating and stressful,” she says.<\/p>\n
And she addresses “wild stories” about her having a torrid lesbian affair with a French diplomat by saying the rumours were rooted in homophobia.<\/p>\n
“The nature of the insult was water off a duck’s back,” she writes.<\/p>\n
“Long-term relationships with men have accounted for more than thirty years of my life, but I have never considered sexuality, my own included, to be binary. Moreover, sexual relationships should be private matters.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Parts of the memoir are deeply personal. Nicola Sturgeon says she may have appeared to be a confident…\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":337427,"comment_status":"","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[748,393,4884,12,1144,712,16,15,1764],"class_list":{"0":"post-337426","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-news","8":"tag-britain","9":"tag-england","10":"tag-great-britain","11":"tag-news","12":"tag-northern-ireland","13":"tag-scotland","14":"tag-uk","15":"tag-united-kingdom","16":"tag-wales"},"share_on_mastodon":{"url":"https:\/\/pubeurope.com\/@uk\/115013706254004922","error":""},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/337426","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=337426"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/337426\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/337427"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=337426"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=337426"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=337426"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}