The screenshot she shared read<\/a>: \u201cI f***ing hate you. You stupid b**** think your so much better than everyone at the Internet Invitational. Go kill yourself you stupid (expletive).”<\/p>\n The unimaginable abuse left Spiranac visibly shaken. In a video posted on Monday, the 32-year-old opened up about the toll of being relentlessly targeted online.<\/p>\n \u201cThank you so much for all the really kind messages,\u201d she expressed<\/a>. \u201cIt truly means a lot to me. I don’t normally do this but this hate, for some reason, has just been really hitting home for me.\u201d<\/p>\n Spiranac, who retired from professional golf in 2016 and became a full-time content creator in 2019, has often been judged more for her appearance than her athleticism. <\/p>\n But this time, she peeled back the curtain on something deeper.<\/p>\n \u201cI’ve struggled socially my entire life. I’ve struggled in big groups of people, making friends, keeping friends, relating to other people, reading social cues, saying the right thing at the right time. It’s just been really hard for me my entire life,\u201d she said. \u201cI know that might sound weird considering what I do but I’m just not effortlessly liked\u2026 It’s just hard for me in big groups of people.\u201d<\/p>\n The emotional toll came as Spiranac<\/a> was competing in The Internet Invitational, a Ryder Cup-style golf event hosted by Barstool Sports and Bob Does Sports. The tournament featured 48 top YouTube golf creators and a $1 million prize pool.<\/p>\n \u201cAt the Internet Invitational, I was really excited because I felt like I could fit in in the industry and be there for my team and show up. I was writing spreadsheets and doing all of these stuff, and I was really excited about it,\u201d the 32-year-old said.<\/p>\n But the backlash she received afterward reopened old wounds.<\/p>\n \u201cIt’s just been really hard to see this reaction to being so unliked and hated. I know there are more important things in life than wanting to be liked but I do want to be liked and I want to fit in,\u201d she continued in the video. \u201cI’ve tried for a lot of my life to find places where I can fit in and when I was at the Internet Invitational I felt really good. I felt like I was showing up for my team and I was doing my job and I was competitive\u2026 Now to watch it back and these deep insecurities of childhood, whatever. It’s coming all back, it’s confirmation that, no, you’re actually not liked. You’re annoying and no one likes you and you suck and you’re terrible and all of these things.\u201d<\/p>\n The ex-golf professional ended with the gut-wrenching reality of being a top-notch influencer.<\/p>\n \u201cIt’s just hard because you feel good in that one moment and you feel like maybe you’re gonna be liked, you\u2019re gonna fit in. And it’s like \u2018Just kidding. Everyone hates you.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n She also urged her followers to check in on others who might be silently struggling and going through “breakouts.”<\/p>\n Spiranac\u2019s Internet Invitational Experience Highlights Deeper Wounds<\/p>\n The emotional fallout was compounded by drama on the first day of the Invitational. <\/p>\n Spiranac\u2019s partner for the first two matches, Roger Steele, had what she described as \u201cunresolved beef\u201d with fellow competitor Jake Adams. Tensions flared when Steele was caught mocking Adams after a misread putt and muttering about a conceded putt \u201cunder his breath.\u201d<\/p>\n \u201cRoger and Jake Adams had an unresolved beef, so Roger was more fired up than normal in that match for good reason,\u201d Spiranac explained on X<\/a>.<\/p>\n She was captured on camera getting angry about how long Adams stood over the ball on one tee box, which made the already tense situation even worse.<\/p>\n More Golf: LPGA Defends Kai Trump\u2019s Debut Amid Growing Backlash<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n![\"Paige-Spiranac\"](\"https:\/\/www.europesays.com\/us\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/11\/GettyImages-1465277806.jpg\"\/)
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